Got some antibiotics and am facing the reality that I, in fact, after all these years, might actually have hayfever. It may the underlying cause of these horrible sinusitis episodes.
They really bring me down - to a screaming halt in fact.
I thought it was diet related or just getting run down.
Could it be a combination of this?
I have always, always denied having hayfever, maybe I need antihistimines and/or something like them.
Just finished reading two books - plenty of reading going on.
'Through a glass darkly' is Caroline Jones describing in quite refreshing detail the grief and truama she endures while watching her father die slowly in hospital.
The anger she buryies.
I can relate to burying anger - it is what I know. Keeping the peace, staying strong, not focusing on oneself, not letting anyone know if you are in pain or distressed or not coping, anxious etc.
There are some excellent comments in the Appendix.
One from the Intensive Care Specialist - still don't think the medical profession really get what an advanced directive is, if someone has gone to the trouble of writing one and getting it legal, the least it should be is honoured. But the medicos think they know better.
He does raise the valid point of the impact of sad events and stories on gthose exposed on them.
Mal McKissock describes the concept of taking it in and letting it out, for counsellors, this is essential for maintaining their mental health and avoiding burnout.
Can you really avoid burnout?
Sometimes your psyche is overloaded- and you either drink too much wine, make phone calls to someone or start blogging(!) Praying is also a refuge. When I do get to go to a quiet church, I find this peaceful.
Slowly regaining my strength.
Trying not focus on jealousy, envy and pettiness.
They are not me. I am a pretty accepting and serene person most of the time.
Qualities I have in me and must be absorbed from my parents.
Thankyou mum and dad.
Once was lost is now found - found my way back to this blog I thought I'd lost - ask me how?
Keep on looking.............................
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